Category Archives: psychoanalysis

EMDR: The Last Frontier

Posted on October 12, 2018 by kegbot1

Now what? Monday at 5 p.m. I will meet psychologist number 33. Note: I had to kick the total up after committing myself to recalling every therapist I have seen in Pittsburgh. The final number, eight, surprised me. Eight in … Continue reading →

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Hitting for the Cycle in BPD

Posted on February 12, 2018 by kegbot1

In baseball, hitting for the cycle is the accomplishment of one batter hitting a single, a double, a triple, and a home run in the same game. Collecting the hits in that order is known as a “natural cycle” – … Continue reading →

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"And the Union workhouses." demanded Scrooge. "Are they still in operation?"

Posted on November 11, 2016 by kegbot1

Everyone’s talking Trump and the election and either it’s a new day in America or the doorstep of Armageddon. I don’t mean to sound crass, but I predicted Trump would win the day he announced – with the caveat: if … Continue reading →

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Psychiatry R Us

Posted on November 7, 2016 by kegbot1

I went to see my drug pusher today. She has a nice office, of course, in a nice building and she has a lot of pretty professional plaques on the wall and a special chair given to her by the … Continue reading →

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Well meaning advice and sick coping strategies

Posted on September 26, 2016 by kegbot1

You have your coping mechanisms, I have mine. Post Script: HOW COULD I MISS THIS? It’s one of my favorite movies. Anyway, the subtitle for this piece should be: How I learned to stop worrying and love the bomb. The … Continue reading →

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The Shame Game or how to lose a crappy psychologist in six sessions or less

Posted on September 22, 2016 by kegbot1

This story highlights the fact that there are a great number of shitty mental health professionals out there:9 women share horror stories about being shamed for their mental health — by doctors I think it is my fate to have … Continue reading →

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Not Fade Away

Posted on September 21, 2016 by kegbot1

Prelude: my ‘discipline’ handed down to me today was a written reprimand which is 1-2 steps away from a firing. After all the star-chamber proceedings all they had was what I said in jest originally to another co-worker. I’m going … Continue reading →

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Confessional

Posted on September 19, 2016 by kegbot1

The relationship between myself and shrink 29 is over.  After 35+ years of psychotherapy or whatever you want to call it, she convinced me that whatever happens now or in the future, it’s all my fault. I have been weighed … Continue reading →

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